Last year, I decided to do a kind of "Best of/Worst of 2008" post, kinda like a letter (as Scarlet did) to 2008. I was hoping 2009 would be better than 2008... alas, it was not. LOL. It was actually the worst year of my life. There *were* some awesome times though, and I hope to re-cap those soon!
So I *know* that 2010 has to be better. I really am so blessed... I have a wonderful husband who is loving, compassionate, encouraging and supportive. I have never felt so loved, and that makes me so happy. :-) I have awesome friends, and my family is happy and healthy (for the most part... tee hee), and we all have God watching over us every day.
I only made two real promises last year. I wanted to not take on so much (which I think I accomplished, but could still work on...). I also wanted to try hard not to please everybody. Old habits die hard. ;-) I STILL need to work on that.
Last night at work, I pretty much had an epiphany. The manager on duty was busy with a customer, and he told me that the floor was my responsibility. I remember thinking, "Great! I feel very confident I can make executive decisions." I felt so "in my element"... for a whole 90 minutes. LOL. Co-workers came to me to ask advice, direction, responsibilities, etc. And it was amazing. I knew what to do in every situation. And it was great.
It left me wondering why I don't act like that on a regular basis. I tend to get intimidated or feel vulnerable when I work with certain types of personalities (or people). I talked to a friend (also a manager) at work about this, and all he said was, "Reyanna, it's a mindset." It is, and I need to have that mindset more often.
So I suppose that I'd really like to resolve to be more confident. Confident that I DO know what I'm doing. And I'm good at it. :-) I am capable. I am reliable. I am responsible. I am strong.
Also for this next year, I'd love to concentrate more on... ME. :-) That sounds so STRANGE to say! LOL. I just feel like I've completely neglected myself. I don't do any of the things I used to enjoy. And that's what I mean when I say that. I just want to do more things I enjoy... my hobbies and interests.
I want to scrapbook.
I want to submit and be published again.
I want to ride my bike.
I want to hike.
I want to rock climb.
I want to stretch.
I want to do handstands. :-D
I want to work out more.
I want to bake.
I want to write.
I want to read.
I want to speak up for myself.
I don't want to do things out of guilt.
And something we *really* want to plan for the next year or two?
A baby. :-)
That is all.
Bring it on, 2010! I. Am. Ready.
p.s. Oh! Since I really don't want to do Photo 365, I decided to try my own version of 365. I enjoy writing/journaling more than I do taking photos. So... Write 365. That's my plan. One sentence or thought per day. A thought that summed up the day. Something I learned. Something exciting that happened. A discovery made. Something. Something that is worth remembering. Because at the end of your day... there is *always* something worth remembering about your life... even if that "something" is the fact that you love watching movies all day long. LOL.